i watched 2 movies in 2 days, totaling of rm19 +___+ that's like 5 dvds or less. nevermind. i haven't been to the movies in a looong time. the first movie this year was wolverine. my first time in gsc 1u and i have to say that the cinema there is very cool in my books. seats are wide and headrest is high enough to lean on.

gsc summit and tgv pyramid must learn something from them. cinematic experience must be taken to another level. haven't tried the ones in the garden. i think that one has special seats too.

today we felt like high school kids all over again. 3 of us have driving license but not one of us drove. at the end of the day we had to call for our 'driver'. a true friend indeed =) we like totally lurve you now. you have all our lovin' wtf.

yesterday was terminator. today was angelsanddemons. both very kan cheong.

waiting for more blockbusters to come...

i need to prepare a draft for my writing class tomorrow but i can't come up with anything now. i realize i cannot conjure up a story under pressure! or maybe i'm just blocking the story. maybe it's already in there in my head somewhere, waiting to be unearthed. and i'm just sitting here blogging. good job, nat. good job.

wasting my time only.

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my mom threatened to take the chair away because i pile all my bags and clothes on it.

in my defense the chair is damn convenient. just chuck everything on it. how i wish i can just chuck away the whatevers, the unknowns and the i-don't-cares.

i need to clear the chair up so asses can plop themselves onto it. bags need to be in the closet. clothes need to be hanged.

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i cannot believe it but the semester is coming to an end. my second last semester is coming to an end. next semester is my final semester and after that, i'm gonna be thrust into the unknown +__+

scary shyt.

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i also cannot believe this but i survived 12 wednesdays. torturous wednesdays! 9-6 classes. crazy shyt. never am i gonna schedule my classes this way ever again!

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i really need to start writing on that draft.

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i really want to watch a movie.

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besides blogging random things, i am also deleting emails from my uni account. i have taken up the maximum storage space. i tried to send the emails to my personal account but it never seems to go there. i suspect i need to have a gmail account for that.

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i need me some retail therapy.

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i'm really sleepy. i've been sleeping early for the past few days.

i've also been taking ridiculously long naps which don't really constitute as naps when they take longer than 20 minutes i think.

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just found out that san francisco coffee in cafeteria has a buy one free one deal. coolios.

only paid rm8 for my extreme mocha. i wonder what's in extreme buzz?

today i was a lazy ass. like literally.

i woke up at 10.30.
i skipped _____. (better not say it, this might be used against me by ____)
i took a 4 hour nap +____+
i have a presentation powerpoint to prepare and so far i only have 3 slides +__________+
i am STILL tired and sleepy even after the 4 hour nap.

FML lyk srsly.

lack of updates due to you-know-what.

i am pretty screwed. due date is on monday now.

monday: essay due.
tuesday: presentation.
wednesday: presentation.

+__________+

fck my life.

friday. 5pm. 2000 words. 40%.

+____+

today's date. tuesday. 8.26pm. 0 words.

readings done. 0.

panic level. -5. wtf.

i have no fear. which should be a fear in itself. i need to get the rush. the exhilaration of wanting to complete the damn essay. but i don't. so how?

continue watching grey's anatomy online.

baibai.

if backstreet boys came to KL, i will be the first in line.

their songs are frickin' awsum!

oh what a day!

the day started the night before and only just ended a few hours ago.

and i'm craving for more.

my friends semester breaks have indirectly become my semester break as well wtf. i am prancing around as though i have no assignments due next week.

priorities are definitely misplaced. but the fun i get out of my misplaced priorities, priceless. now lets just hope my grades won't be affected. because, i know how to have my cake and eat it too. right?

damn fail.

i was on a roll with media audiences till i clicked on mozilla firefox.

@___@

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i miss chicken. don't know if any of you have heard of this but according to chinese belief, if you're coughing, you should not eat chicken. i've been following this belief since last week. i think my last chicken intake was the curry chicken my momma made. omg i'm salivating just thinking of chicken. FML.

i've been chicken deprived for a week. fck thz sht.

oh fck. i had kuey teow soup at old town kopitiam. it had sliced chicken. die. chicken essence in the soup. fck thz sht. i cannot escape the chicken.

see. this is why i cannot be a vegetarian.

have things changed or are they still the same?
so not a mind reader yet not willing to put it out there.
can only go.
going with the flow.
flowing flowing like a stream.
into nothingness.
till the truth reveals itself.

shuffle playing the most randomest songs ever. playlist on shuffle not good this time. need to re-shuffle wtf.

there's some serious shyt in the medication i'm taking. my heart was beating so damn fast today that my hands were shaking uncontrollably. i might be exaggerating a wee bit on the uncontrollably but i was shaking la ok. must give you guys a good mental picture wtf. quite scary lor.

but i'm alright now. thanks for your concern.

i hate wednesdays. i stay in uni till 6pm. i start at 9am. it's a miracle i survived till week 10.

oh yes. it is already week 10. like srsly, where did my days go? it feels like its only the beginning of semester. 3 more torturous weeks and then its finals which will then lead to 3 weeks of pure nothingness. which i am looking forward to. but of course out of the 3 weeks, one week has me globetrotting to a foreign land. looking forward mucho-mucho.

but for now, all i want is my friends from the other side of the world and in different continents to come back. i miss you guys.

i am uploading photos on to facebook as i am typing this.

i am timing the upload as i am uploading photos on to facebook.

the verdict?

10 minutes to upload 5 photos at once.

@______@

take my cough away. please. thankyouverymuch.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

-here without you, 3 doors down.

damnit. fighting a sore throat and slight flu now.

oh what a day!

my day started with a very lazy me lazing in my bed till the very VERY last minute. 7.45am. by that time, had no other choice. MUST wake up. pfft. trust me, if i didn't have a conscience the size of a carl jr's burger, i would have continued lazing in bed.

did my thing and drove off to uni where i met up with erika. she damn nice. she brought me some korean/japanese/sushi-lookalike-but-not-quite rice with salmon that tasted like tuna but was really just fishy dish that her neighbour made. regardless of who made the thing, she was thoughtful enough to think of me. i. am. so. touched *a single tear drops wtf

it was damn good. even my friends said so. i gave them a bite each. and i also had bubble tea. milk tea. the original. i luv it but it's so sweet its diabetic inducing. i even said so in my FB and twitter status "bubble tea quota full this week. anymore n diabetes will come a-knocking!" heh.

ok fast forward to authorship lecture. i tell you, never fail i will surely fall asleep in class. NEVER. FAIL. sumpah i.

even with the thought of andrew returning our assignments never stopped me in fear of falling asleep in lecture. actually, lecture and returning of assignments no connection. but anyways, yes, i was trying my hardest to stay awake. FAIL full stop.

second hour of lecture came and that was when the death days of many came +___+ my sincere condolences to those who were unsuccessful. i know and feel your pain. trust me. living example here.

i wasn't really worried about it till andrew started ticking off things we did wrong in the essay and when my friend who shall not be named was fidgeting beside me. those two combination together sent me straight to hell. i almost couldn't breathe when andrew started calling out names. my heart beat was S-L-O-W-I-N-G D-O-W-N. i could see the white light at the end of the tunnel. *dub dub*

name after name after name. mine was like the second to last to be called. why don't you just stab in the heart la? faster that way. or shoot me la. i'll feel no pain. i think. that's how it is in the movies right? shoot the heart and then...die. it felt like ETERNITY i swear. and it didn't help that the bunch of people in front of me were already getting their results back and were overjoyed they didn't fail. hello, dying back here, andrew!

finally...judgement day came.

i was surprisingly calm. i never really thought about what would happen if i failed it again. maybe a part of me was confident enough that i was going to be able to pull this off the second time round or maybe i was just going to wing and let whatever happens happen or maybe i put my faith in Him to know that i will get through this. whatever it was, i was prepared.

i took my paper from andrew not daring to flip straight to the last page. instead i turned the paper over and tried to see it from the back.

double digit *woot*
first digit didn't start with a zero *woot woot*
first digit looked like a number bigger than 2 *woot woot woot*

i went back to my seat, sad down and slowly turned back to the last page.

all i can say is victory never tasted so sweet. i may not have achieved an HD or even a D but the thought of managing to pull this off the second time was the most sweetest victory i ever had. that was my battle for the past year and a almost half. you have no idea how dejected i was when i found out my results last year. no words. seriously. i remembered telling my friend i was not going to be able to join them for a birthday celebration because i was just too depressed. i cried. i didn't dare tell my parents. i was a failure. the only comfort i can salvage for my own self preservation was that i trust it was His plan for me. not necessarily the failing part but His plan nonetheless.

now, i can only give glory to His name! for without Him i would not have been able to pull this off. i literally worked all night long on the essay. through my 21st. yes. the daytime of my 21st will be remembered for the blood, sweat and tears of toiling away on the essay.

i might not be excellent but that doesn't bother me. i strive to be an average student. so sue me.

i drove home feeling damn proud of myself. messaged a friend and called another.

whilst driving i decided to reward myself for my excellent progress in my world of academia that i went to the times warehouse sale. bought myself 6 books for rm45. can you say dude, whoaaaaa?

alot of latest books only had a 30% discount. don't know if it's worth it or not. so i bought the 3 for rm10 and 3 other books for rm10 and rm15 each. at least now i have something non-academic to read.

my dear friend called me when i was browsing. wanted to discuss an assignment so she came to look for me.

after discussing, we went to the toilet. once we stepped in, the lady janitor told us not to wet the floor.

@_______@

double eww tee eff.

we probably looked like 5 year old BOYS entering the ladies toilet.

she made my day.

it's the weekend woots!

i'll be off to fraser's hill for the long weekend break. church camp yo! i have yet to pack my bags and its already 1.30am +___+

on monday i have an assignment due. die la. woe is me.

looks like i'll be slaving away on it on sunday and monday. what else is new?

i'm beginning to like my writing class. it feels good to not have to think about theories and just write. but then its a pretty exhausting class as well. takes the life out of you.

right. i shall return next week. bai bai.