once again, i have been pushed.

the first time it happened, was last year (2006).

i was so nervous, i could taste the vomit in my mouth. the butterflies in the stomach threatening to fly out through my mouth. hands so sweaty, it was like i had a water pipe attached to my hand. heart beating so rapidly that it could beat it's way to the moon and back in a second.

when she told me, "there is no time for you today. u'll have to do it tomorrow".

i screamed.

and once again, history repeated itself.

why me???

WHY?????????????????